Home is a million miles away

Here's a photo of me after crying for hours with very little sleep.

It has been so long since I even bothered to come back to this space. Well I guess the reason why I'm back is that I've nobody to talk to really. So this entry will purely be about how my life has been so far in Mongolia.

I've gone through so many different mixtures of emotions ever since I got here. The only thing that makes me happy here is school. I love school and in fact, it's the only thing that's keeping me going. So that's one thumbs up.

Then comes social life. I have none here. I guess it's kinda different how people interact here anyway. It might take some getting used to. I guess all this "me" time has taught me that it's really hard to find good friends that will be there, you know. I guess I became very dependent on friends back in Sg because I did everything with them. People here tend to be more independent I guess. They mix around a lot and know everyone. For me, I just like a few good ones around all the time.

I honestly feel that I'm making improvements in my life and growing up because let's face it, I'm turning 18 this year. It's time to stop all my nonsense and think about my future. Okay, wow. That did not sound like me. Back to the point, I've only went out once in a month. I've been home every single day staring at a huge aquarium wondering if fishes mate or not. I mean that's really a huge step for me you know. So I went out this once (yesterday) and lost my phone and my wallet. I don't know but I feel like I'm getting too many punishments at one time.

Firstly, I had to leave the place where I've lived for 12 freaking years. Secondly, I lost my social life due to that. I can't even go out by myself because the country is -35 degrees. I think I have a bad rep in the family. I went out ONCE, ONCE this month and lost my phone and wallet. It's bad enough but nooooo everyone has to rub it in and pressurize me as hell. Cut me some slack people, I'm improving but it gets so annoying when nobody believes in you and when you can see the doubt in their eyes.

Well, I'll make it. You'll see.

P/S : I've deleted all my previous posts because here's to starting afresh mofos!